Thats pretty much it. I'm emotionally exhausted. I keep putting up with all the drama. I think its crippling me emotionally. I'm very stoic < i dont know how thats spelled. i've just gotten to the point that every thing just seems really stupid. Having a job, a gf, a place to live, even living itself just seems to be a fucking retarded thing to be doing. theres no point to any of it. no pay off and no advancement. in the end I'm just going to die anyways and then 50, maybe 100 years at the most from after i die no one is going to remember or care. I mean what he hell is the point of having a family, a house, or a job? its all just superfisial crap that we tell ourselves are important. the government has convinced us that our way to be individuals is to make money and have a home, ect. its bull crap. we all just do the same thing and none of it ever matters in the grand scheme of things. the gov has brain washed us, by making us think we want those things. its all just useless crap. what really matters are the experiences you have. the things you learn. the places you go. We all believe that we should get jobs and a house and a family. all we are really doing is exactly what the greedy and powerful want us to do. Staying out of the way. We aren't being individuals, we are all conforming to the capitalistic bull shit.